It has been a long while since I’ve posted anything. A lot has been going on! My boyfriend and I have not had the best relationship the last 7 months. It’s all revolving around children. He has come to realize he wants them and I don’t. Never have and at this state in my life I don’t see myself changing my mind.
Today is Dec 30 2018, three days ago he finally made a decision that we can’t keep living this way. Him being sad and confused all day everyday and me trying to understand and be there but in the end being pushed away every time.
This last week has been quite miserable, especially being the holidays.
I have also had a lot going on health wise. To recap, I have EDS, suffer from migraines, chronic panic, joint instability, arthritis in my lower back with fluid in the joints, bursitis of both hips. Recently my neurologist diagnosed me with Erythromelalgia. A rare condition where basically random areas of skin burn. Like really burn and it is hot to the touch and for me can last for a very long time. Of course there’s nothing that can fix it, but there’s things to manage it. He also suspects I maybe have a degree of gastroparesis. I have had ALOT of gastro problems the last few weeks.
Any ways.. life for me has been tough and stressful lately. After breaking up I’ve had a lot of time to think about my life. I live in Baton Rouge because I moved in with my boyfriend and now we’re not together so all things are coming up. What do I do when my lease is up? I really like my job and the people I work with, but my ex also works here. Avoiding each other will be tough.
Last night I decided to look into going abroad, either for schooling or to work. I really want to go to Greece or Australia. So, to close out this post, I have applied for things abroad and am trying to get things going. I have always wanted to move out of country and why not now since I have nothing to keep me here?
Wish me luck!!
-Thank you so much to whoever reads this! Y’all are the best!
Hi, I'm Kellie, but I like my middle name too Andre', so call me Kell Andre'. My alter-ego is Blossom, hopefully I'll be traveling a lot in the near future, and leaving the pain behind me!